Diamonds?

I was looking at this diamond thing before, then my friend told me his friend had died and for some reason I managed to link the two together.
Diamonds are so well protected against everything. They are really expensive and worth alot and they are so strong and hard wearing. If somebody has a diamond they treasure it and look after it because it cost them so much, they will polish it and show it off because they are proud of it.
But a persons' life is not so well protected against, they can die at any time and get any one of about 5000000000000000 diseases that can kill. A person might have to go through so much shit in their life and they have no defence, no protection. We are not given anything to help us through what needs to be gotten through or anything to safeguard us against attack. We don't even have the means to defend ourselves. If we make a point; were arguing, if we use force as defence; we are being violent. Worst of all if we are vulnerable; we are subjected to taking crap off every person who thinks it's okay to take the piss and make us feel worse.
A diamond is joined to all the other little carbon atoms for support, they are basically one. But a person cannot live joined on to somebody else, it really doesn't work like that. Yeah, you can be close to people and related but you are never one with somebody else. So basically what ever put us here has intended us to be alone. As humans we have to take the life we have and use it and make it our own and do it alone too.
I would liek to think I apply this to my own life; I try not to rely on other people and I always do things myself. Like school work mainly. I don't get people to do my homework for me or try to help me revise, I don't even let my teachers help me with important deadlines. I do it myself.
I pretty much created a massive hole for myself and dug myself out of it. I was proud of that.
But I think I have mastered being able to function on my own and stand on my own two feet, but have you?

Hitler?

Before anybody thinks I'm a Nazi I'm really really not. I was looking on a secret website and came across this and my face went like this - : .
I saved it because I was so shocked and looked at it a few times over the past two or three days and I have wondered why this person has this particular secret and I think I have come up with why.
If you look at the picture it is clearly of Adolf Hitler, and it is as if he is staring at you or me, like he can see you, and he has the hand on hip; the stance that says 'I am here and that is it.' His hair and clothes are very clean cut and this overall gives the impression of a confident and smart man doesn't it? Just from the picture though.
Obviously he did terrible terrible things to millions of people but it did not deter some of his supporters even though they knew what was happening. If left to his own devices, without the intervention of countries and World War Two the man in the picture would have pretty much taken over the world and killed every single Jew walking the earth and all the people he did not consider of the 'Master Race.' The world would have actually been filled with concentration camps and swastikas would be every where. The German people would be supreme.
But take away what he did, for one moment forget all of the killings and racism that were the fault of this man and think of him as a man, as a politician.
He was able to come from nothing, from a family in Austria and work his way to the top of a government using only his ideas and mind. At first, he used the power of speech and advertising to be noticed; being an extremely talented and persuasive speaker. This technique got alot of Germany captivated by him. He promised the 'elite' of Germany what they wanted, and he told them what they wanted to hear. Doing this he became powerful.
This is why this person admires Adolf Hitler. Because he was able to take a Nation and persuade it to support him using the power of speech only. He had an extra ordinary talent, weather you like or not, I believe that you cannot deny this. He was a man who found his talent and used it in such a way that he changed the world, even if it was for the worse.
The person behind the secret looks up to and gives respect people who use their talents. I think they picked Hitler in particular because he is such a controversial person or subject and that if people pushed ans much as Hitler did but for the better, the world might be a better place.
But of course after a while he started using force, killing people and using what he had in the wrong ways.

Easy.

'Why in the world would anybody put chains on me?'
No idea who it's by but it's from the song Easy. The one that goes 'I'm easy like Sunday morning.' I think it is an amazing song.
You know when you find one of those songs that you can just chill too and it goes in but doesn't come out. It is one of those songs that everybody knows and everybody remembers. When it comes on the radio everybody sings along and when you sing it everybody says 'Oh yeah I know what you're talking about. It's a song that no matter what musical genre you listen too you will know the song. It is is just one of those songs.
But think of the artist behind that. They will be completely ecstatic that they have a pot load of money from a really big record and because they are so famous. Or they could be really depressed because their fame and money make them isolated from the rest of regular society because they could have started out as your average Joe. Like Robbie Williams :)
When people say 'I want to make it big, I want to be famous' are they actually prepared and in the know about what might happen to them? Do they know they could be ripped to pieces and burnt alive or put on a pedestal? Are these people ready to take a huge risk, putting themselves in the limelight and everybody knowing their business?
John and Edward from X factor are a perfect example. X factor is generally a perfect example. They go on stage every week, last weekend wearing outrageous clothing that people get killed for wearing; the girl called Sophie who got killed for being a 'goth.' And they were kept in the competition even though its not hard to see that they have a very small amount of talent and that a bloody monkey could jump around and shout to 'We will rock you' with a fake leather jacket and eyeliner. They are pretty much making a mockery of people who actually dress like that and the whole music genre and making fools out themselves in the process. You only have to look at your Facebook news feed on a Saturday night to know they are not really liked. But in contrast, look at Leona Lewis. She made it. She doesn't need a huge explanation.
Being put in the limelight is a massive risk and works for only a small amount of people, even for people who win the X factor.
Artists are people too, but we idolise them and love them so much they are segrageted and have to form thier own comunities. Give it 10 years and Leona Lewis will be living up in Beverly hills with all the rest of the celebrities becasue she will not know what else to do from all the pressure of society.
Is being famous a good thing or a bad thing?
Can you name any really really famous people who integrate themselves in regular society?
Great song line though.

Just before

Just before I come offline for a couple of hours.
The last post was a really really eye opening thing for me. I feel like a great witght has been lifted and I can move on with my life now.
I've got a lovely new boyfirend and a best friend. I have good friends that have my back and I;m doing good at school. Even my hair is going right.
What more can somebody like me ask for?
I think; if somebody wanted more they would have to be a bit spoilt. People these days focus too much on material items rather than what is actually important. Yes, I do it too but it's how life is right?
Wrong, one day I'll hopefully get free of all the material stuff and have just the essentials. Even if it is nice to have things we don't really need.
It's a way of life these days too have stuff and if you ask me, even though I do it, we forget what actually matters and that is something that should be ammended.

Hey.

No idea, What do you write on something that might not get read? Ha. I'm gonna explain recent happenings with a certain person. I need to get it all down becasue it's generally hard to explain. Becasue it really sums me up this I think, becasue he was a bit part of my life for a fucking long time.
2 years.
That is how long I worried and cared about him. 2 fucking years of my life that I won't get back. The amount of good times with him though and the amount of bad are uncomparable and unforgettable. I can still remember, this one night I ran out of a friend's house becasue of how he looked at me and a comment he had passed. That's how serious it was I guess. was raining aswell, Would be wouldnt it, the stereotypical scene, 2 young people stood on a road in the rain. So bloody ironic. I remember exactly the way he looked at me in the street light and what he said and that is generally something that will stay with me forever. Just goes to show how much of an idiot I am, all this time people telling me to leave him and get on with my life when I couldnt bring myself to. I know why I was attatched now though but it has taken far too long to work out. The amount of people who have come and gone in the time and all the time if I ran away I could always go back to him. But all it took was somebody to make one comment and it sent me into some mad thing and put an end to it for good. Of course I still care about him an a really stupid way but not so much that I need him anymore. I just got sick of hurting becasue of him, it got tiring and it grinds you down and makes you feel like shit and that is something that nobody needs. It wasnt always his fault, it was just shit that got in the way, shit that usualy came when he was around. I want to know him, and I want him in my life with no strings. I want to be his friend. But that wont happen. And yes, I'm going back on everything I ever said to him and I;m breaking all the promises and taking back all the words. If that makes me a bad person, screw it. I'm walking away.